Old Shoe

for what ever reason be what it is
you were there and before i knew
it you were gone

didn't see it coming and you knew that
you played me like i was an old shoe
dirty and ready to be thrown out

believe me when i tell you
I am what you threw away
not an old shoe
but a real person
who cries just like you

yes you will cry
and more than I
there is no coming back
so hows it feel
when wearing that
old shoe

excuse me

I am lonely
Even though you can't tell
I am reaching out
For what, I don't know
I will continue to sit in silence
And hope that someone may stumble across
me and all of my emptiness
And that they do it in time
Otherwise I will have drifted too far
and will have let go
Of whatever grasp of the world I had
I slowly fade out of the lives of everyone
unnoticed.

Standing Alone

Standing Alone
In a place of darkness
in a place of silence
I stand alone,

I'm in silence to all that shut me out
I can't seem to say what I would like
its is like there is no-one there
or if there was wouldn't really care anyway

I don't like living like this or like being alone
Its daylight but yet I am still in darkness
and I can't find anything I lost
I know its there, somewhere
there's so many things I've lost, but again

its also very dark in this daylight world of mine
If you could would you help me?
No-one ever told you I was scared of the dark
standing alone..

Ric D Castellanos

and now I have to find a place
no where to go
nothing to give
promises from people

things never got better
only got worse
wished I would've known
promises from people

never once did you tell me
never understood why
I thought there were laws
promise from people

never will there be another
never will another be so sad
never a tear will pour more
than the tears from my eyes

promises from people
that caused this Suicide

ricci castellanos